Ahhhh - still blissed out…
First of all, thank you all so much for all the cheers and kind words - it really made me feel great!! And I still feel great! Just doing this thing that I had gotten myself all - unnecessarily - angst ridden over has got me feeling all empowered and enthusiastic and brave. And I think: you know, I have been through this a thousand times in my life - I’m afraid of something, I fuss and moan, I put it off, I make excuses, I finally do it, then I’m invincible for a little while. I should know by now and just bypass the crap to get to the good stuff. But each time I seem to have to re-learn it.
So, not surprisingly, my running since the race has been awesome! I’m all standing up straighter, and looking up instead of at the ground, and picking up my feet, and thinking “I belong here, doing this.” And, again not surprisingly, my runs have felt physically easier because in my mind, I’m flying. And I’m seeing myself flying the 5 miler in a few weeks, and flying the 15k in July, and any other race along the way. And by flying I don’t even necessarily mean fast, but moving — forward, strong, joyful!
Comment by Stan
Wednesday February 16 2005 @ 6:55 am
Hello Lara,
I remember my first run, a 10K, back in 2004. I was all worked up about it before, sweaty palms, nerves shot and so on. If I recall there were over 3000 runners/walkers/crawlers - I felt kinda out of place. But after getting started I realized that, with the exception of about 20% of the “elite” the most were just normal hobby “joggers” like myself. My feelings quickly changed from I-don’t-feel-like-I-belong-here to yeah-this-way-too-cool and just an overall feeling of belonging to a super group - on that day I became a RUNNER too!
Awesome!
Good luck with your 5-miler!!
Stan originally from Otsego County, NY