Various stuff…
When running is an imperative…
Yesterday, by the time my work day was finished, I was so full of negative, frustrated, cynical feelings that all I could think was ‘I have to run.’ I came back to the office to change clothes and people kept coming up to me with their various shit, and I kept saying - ‘I’m going for a run.’ And they kept saying ‘good for you’ but they kept chasing me around the building with their various shit till I could finally escape out the door (the weather was cold so I knew they wouldn’t follow me outside!). So I ran around the village for a couple of miles and when I was done, I was empty of that ugly stuff - not spent, not happy or exhilerated, but not sad and weighed down. I just was. And that was a good place to be at that time.
What makes me sad…
Today it took me and 3 men to transfer a very obese lady from her bed to a gurney and try to navigate her out of her house and to the hearse. While with her family later, I spent some time with her granddaughter who is a young teen and possibly even more obese.
I had hoped this wouldn’t happen…
I’m getting sucked into American Idol yet again.
E-mail from American Heart Association website (for Utica chapter)…
Dear Lara,
Congratulations to Lara Cook who raised the most money last week for our on-line fundraising contest. Lara will recieve a gift from the American Heart Association along with a chance to win the grand prize of either walking or running sneakers donated by The Sneaker Store.
So thanks to all my awesome sponsors - how cool would it be to win new sneaks!!! You’all rock!!
64 days left…
Till I’m not a hospice nurse so much any more. I agreed to stay on per diem because it’s so hard to just turn away from it all, but I think I am going to spend the summer working in a restaurant or on a farm or someplace in the Adirondack Park. Physical labor and sunshine are what I’m craving.
By this time next month…
My son will be 15 years old, and is already reminding me that it will ‘only be a year’ till he’s driving. Is there really any way to prepare yourself for that???
Props…
Mark’s daughter, Cassandra, was the creative force behind my new header. I love it!
good night..
ugh, why can’t I sleep?!
Comment by susan
Thursday January 27 2005 @ 5:39 am
Great header!! I know how you feel about the job getting frustrated. Your summer work sounds so rejuvenating. That’s why I’ve always loved my month in RI. It will be hard to give that up when I start the new job. But you deserve it; it’s so important to take care of yourself. Good luck with the driver–speaking of sleepless nights, I remember many during those early driving years:)