like being inside…joy
There’s a line from Star Trek: Generations where Whoopi Goldberg’s character Guinan describes what it’s like to be inside the Nexus.
It was like being inside…joy. As if joy was a real thing that I could wrap around myself. I’ve never been so content.
I’m sure you’ll have no problem guessing where I’m about to go with this, but I’m going there just the same.
Running is my Nexus. It’s the place where I feel joy. The place where time stands still and the place where I am most content.
But it’s also a place I’ve missed and longed for since I began this quest to restructure my running form. Actually, now that I think about it, I’ve been away from my Nexus for much longer than that. The beginning of my quest, and the end of what anyone would call a consistent running schedule, really started when I became injured during my last marathon this past October.
The last several months have been difficult. Let me tell ya, watching my running fitness slip has sucked balls. It also sucked because I’d lost my primary stress management tool so not only did I feel gross physically, I also felt like crap mentally.
But there is a happy ending. As I discovered over this past week or so, I can finally run again and can do so for kilometers at a time without any pain whatsoever!
I’m inside joy.
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Monday May 30, 2005 @
I love that–inside joy. And good for you, Mark. Good for you.