under-confident
Why is it that a fella can work so hard, become a so-called “seasoned” runner and still have bouts of doubt?
Hey, that’s a funny rhyme I just made up!
Bouts of doubt bouts of doubt bouts of doubt. Say that 6 times fast, take two tylenol and call me in the morning.
Anyway, back to our regularly scheduled program. I’m nervous and under-confident about Sunday’s upcoming race. 1:40 is a lot faster than I’ve ever run a half and I’m really battling my demons with this one. What the hell? I’ve been through this before and know I should just deal with it.
I guess the lesson is that it doesn’t matter how many miles a runner puts in – at some point we all go through these times.
Boy, that was one sorry bit of self-analysis but I’m tired and ready for bed so that’s all I got and it’ll have to do for now.
Bottom Line: I’m going to kick this demon in the ass and get on with running.

Tuesday August 17, 2004 @
Even the blogfather is allowed some emotional turmoil now and then. Just do your best and have a great time…and it will all work out. I’ve said this before–as new runner, it helps to see you more experienced runners go through ups and downs since I have them all the time. Somehow it normalizes the whole running experience.