Running Commentary

Run & run & run & run & run December 04 2006

Another run on a broken treadmill. Not REALLY broken but the timer/odometer thingy is pooched.

So I ran for an hour and who the hell knows what speed but I was sweating and sweating hard. I could finally feel it in my legs at the end.

It was fabulous

My last few weeks of running it;s been the cardio that killed me. I was OUT OF SHAPE. I could barely breath after 15 minutes and would need to have a break (which is fine! that’s how we begin) to catch my breath and go again.

Tonight it was almost like I’d never stopped running (almost), finally my legs felt heavy and bulging during my first drink break (30 minutes in and I wasn’t even dieing for one).

So I’m all hopped up on endorphins and feel fabulous…I finally feel fabulous after a run again,

Finally

So I ran. May 12 2006

Today I ran. I didn’t go far. I certainly didn’t go fast. But I also didn’t walk up any (of the many many) hills. My foot f-ing hurts right now.

Anyway..I got this comment the other day from a blogger from way back, her names is Steffany and she has a weight loss blog that i thought she’d stopped updating. I’m pretty sure she takes back this entire comment now since my response to her was “oh my god! I remember you. I totally just deleted you from my blogroll” man i have a way with words. doy!
Anyway I am keeping her comment and sharing it with you all (we don’t say y’all in Canada eh) because it gave me the kick I needed.

Comment:
Pam, don’t stop running! I was a beginning runner when I started reading your blog, and you complete inspired me with your kick-ass attitude and zany cynicism. I know how you feel…I’ve had some ups and downs, but honestly, you were one of the original inspirers and I’ve never quit. Though it’s been a slow road, I just finished my first triathlon (haven’t updated my blog on that, fyi) and am training for a half-marathon in June. The point of all this is that if I can do it, you sure as heck can get right back to where you were in no time! Remember how much you inspired me!!!

Cynicism? I don’t know what she’s talking about.

Running Sucks And I Hate It. May 06 2006

So here I sit, sipping hot tea and listening David Bowie and NIN do “Hurt” ohhh sooo well. I heart Trent Reznor like I’m 16 yrs old. I heart David Bowie like I’m old. Actually I’ve seen David Bowie, in Toronto, his Glass Spider tour. It was phenomenal.

ANYWAY the point of this post was to whine about running. I ran the other day just like I said I would. My foot is STILL hurting me and it was probably the worst run of my life. Worse even than my first 21k training run when it was 45 with the humidex. When I ate my gel and almost vomited. It was worse than that. Because at least on the 21k route I knew I could do it. I knew it was just a shitty run and that tomorrow I would be back out there again running 10 or 15 without a second thought.

Now? 5k is too far. I felt like my head was going to pop. I knew I was going too fast. My old pace just fits me so well…but i slowed down. And then I stopped. I sat on a rock and felt sorry for myself. I turned off my mp3 player and walked for a bit. Listening to sound of my Lycra covered thighs rubbing together. Making me feel worse.

I had always told myself I would never stop running because being a beginner sucks so bad. I mean seriously, it does. Beginning to run is hard. And I’m not sure I can do it again. Maybe I will be that person that used to run and doesn’t anymore. I can start to walk with that limp and tell people that I screwed up my knee running half marathons in my early thirties and I had to stop and eat poutine instead.

I just know that this feels like crap. I look back at a 2:11 half marathon time, not the greatest time, but the greatest time for me and think. AS IF! AS IF I RAN 21km. I mean one time i ran 21km and then went camping for the weekend. Was I insane. I have friends doing the half in Ottawa in a few weeks and I am insanely jealous and at the same time ashamed.
Oh my god Shakira is on now talking about her hips.

shoot me.

(yes yes I know she’s HOT)

I need a plan. I have a race or 3 in mind for the fall. I just need to do it. That’s the problem. When I think about running i know exactly how it feels to run 10k and feel fucking fabulous the entire time. To climb a hill and feel you muscles bulge as  they pull you up the hill. I LOVE that feeling. And that is the feeling I’m expecting when I go out for run, yet that’s not the feeling I get. My brain and my body are not connected or something. I start out as I normally would but my body begs me to stop at the top of the first hill. I don’t like it. Make it stop.

I think I’ll go outside and take some pictures.

The SUCK that was my run April 19 2006

So I ran today. And it sucked. It was one of those runs that sucked the entire time! I didn’t make it one block before the muscles in my shins completely locked on me. They were rock hard and would not give. I stopped and stretched…ran a bit more….stopped and stretched ran a bit more.

Then I convinced myself I was being a big baby and just needed to run through it. Suck it up self! You’ve run longer and harder than this. So I ran and ran…and then? I had to stop and stretch and my shin muscley thing? Was sticking so far out. It was killing me.

This has happened before a year or so ago and I can’t remember the solution. New shoes I think? Looser laces? I tried everything i know that. I know tomorrow my shin splints will be sore.

This makes me want to throw in the towel. Who needs to run 25k again. I know I can do it. I HAVE done it. Do I really want to commit the time it will take to work back up to those numbers?

Yeah…kinda…I do.

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Go laugh at MarciaMark he’s wearing a skirt…running an 8k race IF 100 of us make a donation to any charity we choose.

Running April 12 2006

so I ran with my neice this morning. It was a great run for me. I pushed us up some nice hills. Not such a good run for the neice. She has developed pain on the inside of her calves…right above the ankle. What do you think it is? Shin splints? Wrong shoes?

Don’t EVEN get me started on how the fitted her for running shoes.
“These are popular”
“ummm don’t you want to see me walk or run…or like stand or anything?”
“No…you say you walk like a duck…this should do…”

AAH!

I’ve told her to ice them tonight (off & on of course) and to see how they feel next time.

What she wants to know is, can she run if it hurts. Not any easy question for me since my shins USUALLY hurt to some degree. But I told her know…running in pain is not good…especially for a beginner.

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