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Anger and running …

Filed under: General — beverly at 10:09 pm on Thursday, August 10, 2006

… are actually a good match for me.

 I don’t get angry often.  I like to laugh things off, and keep the peace, generally.  I actually don’t recognize anger often.  I think I’m frustrated, I’m hurt, I’m disappointed etc.  I grew up as the “good girl” in a house of crazy boys, and being angry was not ever on my agenda. 

Today, I got angry about a situation in which I feel I have little control, and I’ve done every honest and upfront thing I can to try and gain some understanding of the other party. 

So, I went for a run.  A late night run with my (somewhat confused) little dog.  I left my Forerunner behind, but I should’ve taken it, because I kicked butt.  I ran what I know was over 4k, and let’s just say, I was panting harder than the confused dog.

At the end of the run, I collapsed on a large rock (that doesn’t sound all that comfortable, now does it?) that sits, waiting for me, on my street.  And I cried a bit, truth be told.

And I feel about 100% better.  What will be, will be.  I can only be me. 

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Comment by Jon in Michigan

Saturday August 12, 2006 @ 4:52 am

I found during grad school that crying hysterically for an hour a day helped.

Sorry things got in your face, Beverly. Isn’t it amazing how much faster you run when you are pissed? I find myself thinking about the damn house and take a peek at the Forerunner and I’m pumping along about 2:00 per mile faster than I wanted to. Anger moves us, what can ya do?

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Comment by Meg

Saturday August 12, 2006 @ 6:26 pm

I needed to read this tonight: What will be, will be. I can only be me.

thanks

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Comment by Jack

Monday August 14, 2006 @ 1:36 am

You can only be you and that is pretty fantastic! I’m slow to anger, but running calms the beast inside.

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Comment by fatima

Wednesday September 13, 2006 @ 5:33 am

i was a runner since the age of 18. I got a large amount of anger – dealing with myself and past mistakes, injustice, frustrations, humiliations, bethrayal from other people. I am now 33, and for the past year, I carried anger in my tommy. This tommy appeared to become fatter than it should be. Anger made me fat…quite interesting for a runner. It also did not allow me to breath properly. I thank ANGER, even though it is a difficult emotion to deal with when it lasts long. Indeed anger wakes you up about certaing things you do in this life that are preventing you from being happy. You also consider going through a life change.

Running helps me to bring back balance into my body. I feel so happy when I run. It brings me peace, and release pain, tension, and fears. It is also a spiritual time for me – a time that allows me to stay in touch with my spirit in this crazy world! It clarifies my brain as well as my body. I always feel purified after a good running. During a run, I feel like flying, sometimes.

When I was younger, I use to tell to myself, while I was running – yeah yeah you gonna do it…so much pressure and tension to the brain when we think like that.

Therefore, I now listen to music while I run. It makes the run so easy to accomplish. You just have to make sure that you do not ommit to listen to your breath, body, and spirit. Those will guide you, and drive you during your run.

Life is interesting!

Fatima Laassikri

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