sleep, baby, sleep
I long to be able to sleep like my daughter does. She falls asleep literally within a minute of entering her bed. As a parent, yay! As a person, I’m completely jealous.
Having insomnia drives me nuts. I swear that when I’m 80, I’ll have truly lived about 120 years because I sleep so little. For me, insomnia is not being able to initially fall asleep. Once I’m asleep, I am good for the night. This is completely opposite of my brother, who wakes up at 3 a.m. and completely roams the house. It’s not a wonder he’s a golfer who can actually enjoy a 5 a.m. tee time. If he were me … well, there are no tee times at midnight.
I’m considering going back to the iridologist to really LISTEN THIS TIME to his advice. He had a whole diet / detox plan , etc. to promote sleep. These days, I’m at my breaking point with it, and I’m pretty much willing to try anything. Am I tired throughout the day? Most days I don’t notice. Last Sunday, I had a complete meltdown. As in, I could’ve rivaled my 2-year-old daughter for how completely unreasonable I was being. My husband just looked at me in his I-am-a-rock way, and firmly said, “Go and have a nap.” Okay, point taken. And for the first time since Camryn was a newborn, I was able to have a nap and actually sleep soundly for 3 hours. I slept so hard that I dreamt and sleep-talked and drooled … and …. it was heavenly.
I don’t know if my insomnia has to do with the fact that 90% of my work is from home, so I always feel as if I could go and work on something. Or if it is these writing ideas that POP! into my head just as I’m drifting off. Or if it’s just the mega-lists I’m living off of as I manage dealings with my 3 kids, my house, my husband, our social life, extended families, my job, my writing projects …. Okay, rewind. I am NOT complaining about my life. Not in the least. I just want to sleep through some of it, that’s all.
I also have to wonder if the time of day I run / exercise isn’t influencing things. More and more, the evidence is pointing me to an early morning workout. Hmmmmm.
I envy you sleeping folks. That’s all I’m sayin’.
