sad
Posted By Jon on July 15, 2009
Today I am sad. I know why I’m sad. I’m sad because of so many missed opportunities in my life because I walk around in daze, oblivious to what is happening around me. I think I always have. Its like walking around in a dream, and seeing things happening, but not really processing it. I can’t live in the moment because its like my head is elsewhere.
For people who have met me, do I seem kind of out of it? Slow to respond, like you waking me up by saying something to me? Do I make any sense?
Sometimes I feel like I just have no idea what people are talking about. Or I know what they are talking about but either its moving waaaaay too fast, or excruciatingly slow. Its kind of all or nothing.
Just mentally drifting today. :(
i haven’t met you so i don’t know if you’re out of it or not. You (usually, OK almost always!) make sense here.I DO know that I just spent 16 hours in a meeting and I said ONE word. I feel pretty damn stupid. Then again, why is our company head asking the editorial dept for ideas on new products to sell. How the hell should I know, do i look like i have an mba? bollocks.
see? No matter what you write, it’s always all about me. sigh.
We’ve not met, but I’m sure you’re ditzy. Mostly, you just need to get out of my head. Perhaps it’s something we ate? Tomorrow will be better, for both us. :)
Hi Jon, I’ve had the privilege of meeting you and can say you don’t seem to be any worse off than the rest of us. I think we all have days where we feel like we are on the outside looking in. Of course when we would rather be doing something else, every day can seem this way, in this case we have to try to cope with reality until we have the chance to do what we’d rather be doing.
Jon, You don’t know me, but I’ve enjoyed reading your blog from time to time. Today’s mirrored exactly how I am feeling! So I guess we all go through this. Self-absorbtion….feeling stupid or out of it… I guess the best thing is to keep on doing our best to be aware of the world around us. I know I certainly need to try to do that more. Thanks for your posts, in fact, thanks for your blog! (let me know your email address if you want to be invited to read my blog.)
Don’t they sau oblivion is bliss? Not only does everyone have these days/weeks/months/YEARS but I think we deserve it from time to time! From being a blog stalker of yours for a while now I can tell you that from the posts I have seen you don’t at all seem self absorbed or walking around in a daze. Just my observation, but from what I have read here, your accomplishments and adventures outweigh a lot of people’s To Do Lists! Hang in there. Maybe more of us should walk around in a daze and not worry about the things going on around us! It is not always a bad thing.
Hi — hope you’re feeling less sad today!
Thanks for the race suggestion. I’ll be away that weekend :-( but I’ve heard that is a good race!
You certainly didn’t seem that way to me when we met.
If it’s just today, well, we all have days like that.
I have picture proof of your cat-like instincts to prevent me from picking up a piece of pizza. Maybe that’s just a food thing.
I suspect you sense you’re slow because you spend too much time thinking to yourself, discussing your presumed slowness with your id.
maybe you need prozac?
I hope you feeling good today, Jon.
Hi Jon –
Hope you’re feeling better.
I feel completely disconnected like that quite a bit, & feel guilty for my kids when I realize I’m at that point.
Usually that’s when I try to unplug from the online community when that happens, to try to reconnect to the live stuff happening around me.
That’s also when I start running without my iPod or my Garmin.
1. Everybody’s poop stinks
2. Everybody is actually crazy
3. Everybody knows that they are crazy but thinks everyone else is sane.
4. You’ll be fine. Just have some chocolate and go running.
I’ve met you pre and post race, and like the rest of us, your mind is elsewhere (generally focused on 12 miles of pain)
I haven’t met you, but I know you make awesome truffles.
Obviously, you need to run down a steep, rocky, rooty trail. Find a big mountain and just hurtle yourself down. Not off a cliff, just a good, runnable, challenging descent.
Your focus will return.