That’s what its all about.
I ran tonight, despite the doc’s suggestion. No back pain while I ran which was good. We had anice low humidity day today which was pretty unusual. I skipped dinner and headed out for a quick 3 miler past the cows again. Sometimes I get a tune stuck in my head. This time it was the hokey pokey. I’m not sure where it came from but it some how fit my cadence.
I started writing down everything I ate today. It turns out that my lunch is almost 1000 calories. And breakfast is 500. If I want to lose any weight in a reasonable amount of time, then I’m about done for the day. Egads, I was starving by the time I came home. I had a small glass of milk (100 calories) and then went to run.
I know counting calories is a bit of a crazy thing but its come down to this. If I can’t get a full hour of working out, then I need to go back to first principles and work on the source of the problem. The first time I lost 50 pounds, I did it by brute force and worked out 6 days a weeks for an hour. And I would throw in weights twice a week. But the eating didn’t stop or get better, and so I had to burn it off.
Well, when I started running, then I couldn’t do that because it was all I could do to keep up with running 3 miles. And my hour workout turned into 30 minutes. And the eating continued, which is how I actually gained weight training for a marathon. The weight has crept up slightly ever since I began running. Now that I had to take a break, everything exploded (particularly around the middle).
So I start over. I’m 195 pounds. My pants don’t fit. I huff and puff going up three flights of stairs. Running 3 miles is a seriously long run. Square one. That’s where I am.
I know I fixed this before, and I know I can do it again, but I just hate to have to go through all that again, and in this awful way. Sitting here in the bedroom, typing, and skipping dinner. :( I want to be able to get my hour of cardio in and eat what I want. That doesn’t fix the problem though, it just hides the symptoms. Maybe a little pain is good for me. Maybe this time, the effort will impress upon me the need to not only exercise but eat responsibly too. I do hate to eat responsibly though. Maybe that’s the point. Maybe that’s what its all about.
July 24th, 2006 21:44
It sucks being a human being who works at a computer, huh? We weren’t meant for it!
I count calories if I need to sometimes. It’s not weird. Doctors and health people TELL people to do it b/c most people don’t know how much they are eating.
Maybe do it for your son, ya know? Stay healthy for him. Or to be a good role model. Easier said than done though, I know. I totally worry I pass my neurosis on to my little sister. :( You’ll be okay. It’s so great that you’re a runner Jon and you’re trying to eat healthier. You’re wonderful!! Now stop beating yourself up!
July 25th, 2006 01:15
Actually analyzing what goes in your mouth is the quickest path to success. Food just takes on a whole new meaning when you can relate what is in it to what it does to your body. Come to think of it, I need to start tracking my food. It holds you accountable and keeps you from stuffing your face. The weight loss follows naturally.
July 25th, 2006 05:41
It is hard when you are back to square one and have to start over. I’ve been back to square so many times in my life that I had a permanent mailing address there.
That’s why I run like a madman, I don’t want to go back again.
Good luck with your diet, I feel what you feel.
July 25th, 2006 09:32
Moderation is the key. You’ve done it before, you can do it again!
July 25th, 2006 10:21
you are off to a good start if you know your eating habits, the challenge is to make healthy choices. eat plenty of fiber, drinks lots of water and don’t skip meals esp. breakfast.
July 25th, 2006 11:07
Depression is anger turns inwards. Turn is back out and use it to your benifit! All the best to you Jon.
July 25th, 2006 11:14
Be gentle with yourself, Jon. I know you have great willpower (hello, LENT this year!), but don’t skip meals and beat yourself up. Ramp your exercise up gently, to AVOID INJURY. Decrease your calories moderately and cleverly, to avoid severe cravings. Write out a reasonable plan for both, and you’ll follow it.
July 25th, 2006 11:34
You could always have an apple or some other kind of fruit for dinner after you’ve blown your whole freakin’ day! I hate dieting, I decided I don’t mind having a fat ass, because I would rather eat and be a little chubby, then be skinny and deprived. I also think it is related to our growing older too. As 40 approaches for me, every year it seems I have to eat less. BOOHOO!
July 25th, 2006 13:54
I know counting calories is a bit of a crazy thing but its come down to this.
Not crazy one bit - it’s the only thing that consistiently works for me.
But don’t skip the meals - that only leads to binging.
July 25th, 2006 14:22
Everyone else has had great advice (esp the NOT skipping meals, which makes me tired and depressed). I will throw in that my stomach problems of late have led me to a diet of fruit, vegetables, chicken and oatmeal (with some extra fiber thrown in). I lost weight without thinking about it. Giving up processed foods and sugar hasn’t really bothered me this time around. Good luck Jon. You can do this again. In many ways, we are always starting something again. It’s ok.
July 25th, 2006 15:26
I can relate to everything you are experiencing. I’ve been trying to eat responsibly but sometimes I just lose it. I think I’m finally back on track. Lost 4-5 lbs. in the last 2 weeks, even with the foot injury.
Stay with it. I know you can do it because you’ve done it before.
July 25th, 2006 15:37
I laughed at the Hokey Pokey being the song in your head that you ran to. Mine was recently the theme song to Disney’s “The Little Einsteins,” lol, I can relate.
Major GL on your wl journey.
July 25th, 2006 18:54
You and me both Jon.
We’ve both fallen off the wagon (no I am not a drunk).
GAH!
July 25th, 2006 20:05
I know how you feel. I dropped alot at the beginning of the year and have put it back on..Trying to remotivate and loose it. Love the Hokey-Pokey
July 25th, 2006 22:17
1000 calories for LUNCH? what the hell are you eating, man! No skipping meals, not allowed. Drink plenty of water. Here’s a nice easy lunch: Flat bread, spread with hummus, and loads of salad. have two! keep blueberries on your desk and eat them all day long…they’re yummy.
you can start over, or you can not. you don’t really have a choice, my brother! I should know; i start over EVERY SINGLE DAY!
hang in there.
:)
July 25th, 2006 22:18
p.s. good thing NOD “forgot” to bring chocolate home from Belgium!
July 26th, 2006 00:57
agrees with Karen, least you started again and thats great!
July 26th, 2006 07:23
I can entirely relate to your dilemna Jon. ~hugs~ Prayers for us both to find the healthy path to a fitter us! ;)
July 26th, 2006 22:47
You are not alone.