195

I saw this on the scale recently.  Its a sorry thing.  How long ago was it that I saw 167 on the scale?  Not very.  (That was a rhetorical question by the way.)

Missing my running basically since the end of March has brought on the pounds like you wouldn’t believe.  The fat clothes are tight.  Not a good thing.  Add 3 seconds to my fastest mile for every pound and there goes my 5K time down the toilet.  The odd thing is that I think I can really cut this down fast.  I found that my 40 day stretch without chocolate has taught me how to hold back on food I want to eat.  I saw 186 this AM.  Still dreadfully high and clothes still fit too tight, but its some progress.

I’ve gotten three runs in so far this week and I think I’ll be running again tonight.  Just 3 miles at a shot but its a start.  I skip dinner and go run.  Have some water afterwards, not much else.  To be honest, if I’m not in training, then cutting the calories way down isn’t going to hurt much.  And maybe it will force things out of storage.

I was thinking today about people I know that eat really crap food and don’t exercise at all.  I know one person that actually talks like he’s proud of it.  “Ah, that’s all just crap.” he says refering to eating right and exercising.  He eats whatever junk feels good in his mouth, and he’s in dreadful shape.  I remember being like that.  I spent alot of time rationalizing what I was eating.

Looking back on it now, I wish I had never eaten like that in the first place.  I think that what you do to your body when you do that has a permanent “poisoning” effect.  And it takes years to heal the damage.  Sometimes never.  I suspect that eating enough sugar to kill an elephant and piling enough grease in your belly to stop up a drain, damages so many intricate systems in your body, that you can no longer properly regulate body weight, sugar levels, saity (sp?) levels, and things like that.  Eat that kind of food again, and you will fall right back down because your body can no longer handle it.

I was watching “Supersize Me” and there was a really obese young girl talking at one point about McDonald’s or something like that, but that was when I first saw how she really looked.  Poisoned.  The poisoning she had done to her body from eating all the food was evident from her face and body being so fat.  Remember that picture of the Russian diplomat guy that was poisoned?  Different poison but see how it changed entirely the way he looked?  This girl looked poisoned.

For years I poisoned my body with crap food, and now it shows that losing weight and running and all isn’t going to fix the damage.  All I can at this point is eat well and exercise to keep myself from degrading more.  And when I look at that guy, with his devil-may-care attitude, all I can think is “Some day, you will be sad about all this.”   Right now, he’s too stupid to see where he’s going.  The funny part is?  If he ever read this, he’d think I was talking about someone else.  :D

So, I need to get out for another 3 miles tonight.  Before I explode.

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